Learning about myself

I find it interesting that I am finding out things about myself that I never realized before at my hotel. I don't know if it is because I am growing and allowing myself to look at myself from a different perspective or what it may be, but I find myself learning more and more about myself as I move along in my career.

With the help of another manager at my property I found out some more things about myself today. I have been shown that there is a big difference between loving what do you and just doing what you do. Now that may seem like a simple statement, but life isn't always that simple. It has now been about a month since I have began this position, and I have been shown that I have not put forth the kind of effort that I have been known to do. This for me is a big deal. I do not like to have people doubt my abilities or wish that they had not given me the opportunities that I have been given. I know that personally and professionally I am better than that. As this other manager said, "Sometimes you just need a kick in the butt." So now my goal for the foreseeable future is to restore the trust in me that I know the managers at my property have had in the past.

This talk that I had also showed me that there are things that I am missing about myself. I thought that I have been headed on the right track as a manager, but I feel that I may have swerved a bit along the way. I have some personal issues in my life that I need to tackle very soon because I do feel that they are holding me back professionally. I have all of the tools that are necessary for me to succeed in this industry and it is only up to me to make sure that I use them in such a way to push myself forward as well as my department at my hotel.

I have seen other managers at my property grow and change, and I want the same for myself and for my department. I want to look back a few years down the road and know that I made a difference at my hotel, but that can only start with myself. I'm finally starting to see that it is much more beneficial for all parties involved if I just throw myself out there and pour my whole heart and soul into what I do. I've always wanted to love what I do, but I have been holding myself back for whatever reasons (I've had an excuse or two in the past). I realized today that I may be holding myself back from something that I could really love doing because I am scared of what it may bring....

It's time to stop making excuses and show everyone what I can really do, because I know that I have the ability to do it! This is the week where I will start taking on projects of my own and will begin to show some ownership in my department!

Look out for next week when I will outline some of the projects that I have taken on!!!!

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